Not much of an update really. As far as I know, all is currently well. I got brave and decided to wait the usual 4 weeks from my last ultrasound, so nothing new until 12/21. Still nauseous but not as bad all the time. I have some days where I feel icky all day, others where it's just once in the morning and then barring strong smells, I'm okay. I *think* I heard the heartbeat on my doppler a few days ago at 12 weeks but it was in and out so I couldn't count it. . .Hoping that at least means my little wiggly bean is still hanging in there. . .
Yesterday I had waves of nausea off and on all day. I still haven't thrown up, but I have heaved a few times. I just refuse to give in and run to the toilet. I called my doctor's office yesterday and got my prescription for Zofran called in. Decided I didn't want to go the weekend without access to it. My esophagus feels bruised from a dry heave/pill swallowing incident I had a few days ago so I REALLY don't want to puke.
This morning, when I awoke and felt the first mild waves of nausea, I rolled over and took a Zofran and then stayed in bed another 30 minutes. This enabled me to get up and eat breakfast without fighting the nausea. Since then I've had a queasy moment or two but nothing major. Of course, I'm worrying if that's a bad sign. The first trimester is such a mental trial for me. *sigh*
That's right, I'm pregnant again! I've decided to blog here again to document the ups and downs. I like having this blog to look back at my pregnancy with AG, kind of like a journal. AG by the way is 2 now and a delightfully mischievous little one. So here we go again!
At something like 3 weeks, 2 days, I took a test that was faintly positive. I was shocked. We'd been off the pill for 2 mos but we weren't timing or trying at all. . .and with my previous fertility problems, I did not expect to become pregnant. That said, I am a compulsive stick-peer when not using birth control, so I bought a 50 pack off of Amazon for $10 and was indulging my compulsion several days a month. I was also hoping to catch even a very early pregnancy that might not last because I was curious about the state of my Fallopian tubes and didn't want to have a radiology test done to see if they were open. ANYway, on the day in question, I peed on the stick and left it sitting by my computer and forgot about it. I went to lie down for a nap, remembered I'd left it laying there and went to throw it away so GG wouldn't ask me what it was. As I reached to drop it into the trash can, I was very surprised to see a faint line!
Fast forward to 4 weeks, blood draw showed HCG at 531 and progesterone at 30, both good for early. Repeat draw at 4 weeks, 2 days showed HCG at 1119. Also good. That's all the info for now. We've decided not to keep it a secret this time as we did with AG. GG is old enough to understand the possibility of losing it and I want to celebrate this little miracle even if it's with me for only a few weeks. I hope it sticks but if it doesn't, it's in the hands of God anyway.
Today, I am 6 weeks, 2 days and I've been having waves of nausea mildly since 5 weeks 6 days. I also have a raging cold so not sure if that has something to do with it. Right now, sugary bubble gum (Dubble Bubble) or Coca-cola flavored crushed ice is doing the trick. Also eating what I crave and nothing else seems to be good. My OB gave me a prenatal vitamin with extra B6 to take throughout the day that is supposed to help with nausea. So far, so good. Here's hoping. =) Ultrasound to check for heartbeat scheduled for 11/9/11 at 7 weeks, 2 days.
So I've thought of a possible "use" for this blog, but it completely depends on you, the readers. I'd be willing to maintain or create new content, IF I have folks to interact with. So my thought is. . .anyone who's currently mourning a pregnancy loss and just needs support from someone who's been there, leave a comment. I'd be more than happy to offer you a listening "ear" in the midst of your pain. Or if you're pregnant again after miscarriage and just need someone to share your fears or your news or your joy with, I'd be honored to be that person. Sometimes it can be easier to type to a faceless friend than to talk to a supporter in person. It's just an idea, and it might be a bad one. I have the blog set up to notify me when you comment, so feel free to try it out. I'm here in the blogosphere, with cyberhugs a plenty. . .
I think for now, I'm just going to leave this blog here for anyone who may need encouragement while going through a similar experience. Someday, should I be blessed with another pregnancy, I will undoubtedly need somewhere to vent my thoughts and fears again. If any of you, my readers, have ideas about a new direction to take this blog or have questions for me you would like answered, please feel free to leave a comment, and I will do my best to answer. I do have two other blogs I am currently maintaining. . .well, perhaps maintaining is a strong word, because admittedly, I don't post as much as I should. Check out my blogroll on this page. . and I wish you all the best!!!
Okay, so she's actually been here for about 6 weeks. If you've ever had a newborn AND a second child, you understand the lateness of my announcement!
My beautiful baby girl, who shall hereafter be referred to as AG for blogging purposes, arrived on October 20th, 2009 at 2:39 p.m. via scheduled C-section. She weighed in at a hefty 9 pounds, 5 ounces and was 21.5 inches long. I cannot believe after all the preterm labor scares, she actually waited till the scheduled day.
I had a rough few days of recovery post C-section due to a horrible cold with a cough. Ever had an abdominal incision and a cough at the same time? If not, consider yourself fortunate! Once that issue resolved, I felt better pretty quickly.
AG is a gorgeous baby (I may be a little biased, but not too much, really!). She is already sleeping well at night and nursing like a champ. I feel so blessed to have my two sweet little girls.
I'm not sure the best way to utilize this blog now that the pregnancy is over. If I have any regular readers left after the two month hiatus of no posting, I am open to your suggestions. I started this blog as a way to diary my pregnancy and have an outlet for my anxiety as we slowly passed the "risky" phase for miscarriage. We're not absolutely sure we're finished having babies but we're done for a few years at least. I would love to be a support to any newly pregnant mommies out there who have experienced a loss and need to talk about their worries during pregnancy, but I'm just not sure I have the reader base for that. I guess we'll see what happens naturally here. Post a comment if you have a suggestion for what direction we should take this blog!
I know. . .I know! Long time, no update. Basically we've been doing about the same so nothing really to report. I am 38 weeks, 3 days today and she's still in there! Apparently we were very convincing when we stopped premature progression at 33 weeks. I stayed on modified bedrest (just a lot of sitting but I still worked) until 36 weeks, then kind of took it easy till 37 weeks. Now I'm sort of wishing she would come. Well, not today, it's GG's birthday and I'd rather they not share that date, but soon.
As it stands, I'm scheduled for a repeat C-section on October 20th at 1:30 p.m. if she doesn't try and make an appearance before then. I'm back to my normal activities (and then some!) because I have this OCD urge to clean everything. I've had that urge for about 2 months now so even if it is "nesting" it's apparently a long term thing for me. So. . .we're just sitting tight, waiting to meet this little beauty. Big sis turned 5 today so it was a big day for her! My doctor agreed to let me off work starting this week so that's a huge relief. I'm not sleeping at night and at least now I can nap some during the day this week. I'll try and keep the blog updated but no promises!
Diary of a nervous mommy during a new pregnancy after a heartbreaking miscarriage.
About This Blog
In July of 2008, I miscarried my second child at almost 12 weeks. The baby stopped developing around 10 weeks, but it was a "missed miscarriage" and I had a D & C at 12 weeks. The experience was heartbreaking, and something I never thought would happen to me. I have one beautiful 4-year-old daughter, but we long to add to our family. Since we won't be announcing this pregnancy until we're closer to the safe zone, I'm blogging to document my thoughts, fears, and excitement.